When you become a care giver for someone who is very ill if you aren't careful you can lose yourself completely. Get so caught up in helping the person you are caring for maintain a good attitude about themselves, and getting better, you lose sight of that within yourself. To be a truly good caregiver it is important that doesn't happen! So this morning I am reminding myself that along with being a good caregiver to my husband, I am also still the woman I was before we started this Cancer Journey. It is because I was, and still am that woman, I can be the caregiver to him I need to be.
I have spoken to Mr. Grinch this morning. He is a little better than yesterday. Right now that is all we can hope for until he gets completely over the pneumonia and can once more return to his Chemo regime. Unfortunately that regime that is destroying cancer cells is also destroying good cells as well and leaving him wide open to pneumonia and other bad things. I can do nothing about that. All I can do is visit him when my friend takes me over there, try to keep his spirits up as best I can when I am there, and when we are on the phone. And try not to lose sight completely of who and what I really am besides a caregiver.
Blessed Be
