Friday was a very good, if somewhat waterlogged day. But I'm not complaining about the being waterlogged part! We need the rain too badly to complain about that. Though it did prevent me from going over and seeing my honey, not wanting to get out in it encouraged me to scrounge through the freezer, fridge, and pantry to come up with something to take to the TGIF Potluck Supper. I found enough ingredients to make a big pot of my Anything Goes Ground Beef Soup, which was a big hit at the potluck. In fact, I was lucky to get a bowl of it to bring home for lunch. Good thing I got my honey a bowl of it to take to him today, before I took that big pot of it to the potluck last night.
This morning I woke up to nice cool Fall weather. I even turned the little electric fireplace on for a few minutes to chase the moisture out of the air in here. Right now I'm still being a bit lazy and sipping my second cup of tea before I get my bubble butt in gear and really start the day. And of course wishing my man was here to share this moment with me. But, we did talk on the phone this morning, and I will be going over to see him in a little while. My words for today stem from the fact I have had to become so strong these past couple of months to be able to deal with what we are going through. I am going to do my best not allow the cancer, COPD, or anything bad to dominate our lives to the point it takes all joy out of it.
Yes there will be moments, especially when he starts the chemo, when it is really going to be tough to do. I've done really tough stuff before though. I will stay as strong as possible through this. Because when you get right down to it, what we are going through is all about the realities of love. This ain't no game here, or fantasy. This is a real deal, time to put aside all differences, let go of the past, and live each moment we have left unconditionally loving each other time of life. And hope that time lasts longer than anyone could have possibly dreamed it would.
My words for today also remind me in order to do that, I have to be a tough little cupcake. Sometimes I will have to get tough with him to keep him on the right track. Sometimes I will have to get tough with others to make sure he gets the very best care possible. And sometimes I'll have to get tough with myself to keep on keeping on. Fortunately, I tend to have an indomitable spirit by nature, and a past that has prepared me for what is ahead. And, we have the greatest bunch of real friends around us anyone could have, who will help us both to stay strong and make it through this.
