This morning I am sipping my tea and counting my many blessings. Mr. Grinch continues to steadily improve. Which is tops on the list of blessings I'm counting. Yes, we have some really rough times ahead of us. But, considering a few weeks ago the doctors believed I was facing the prospect of becoming a widow within two weeks, no matter how rough those times get, they too will be a blessing.
Next to that is all the wonderful friends I have that have been such a help to me. Those friends have helped me through this in so many ways. When I needed help, those real friends were, and still are, there for me. I am especially grateful to Brian who drove me back and forth to San Antonio while Mr. Grinch was in the hospital over there.
I'm also extremely lucky to be working where I am. From the very beginning of this nightmare time I have been told, "You do what you need to. Don't worry about your job. Do what you can, don't worry about the rest." Being able to cope with what is happening, and still keep this job I so love was one of my biggest worries. But that is something I don't have to worry about. And that means more to me than words can explain.
SweetPea is another blessing I'm gratefully counting here. Without her I would still be driving a crew cab truck I could not see over the hood of without a booster pillow, and that even with a booster pillow, scared the living daylights out of me to park.
I'm also very grateful that my health is good enough to hold up to what has already come, and hopefully to what is around the bend for us. I've got to stay strong both physically and emotionally to help my husband through the dark times he will be experiencing. My plan is to be such a bouncy bright little ray of freaking sunshine throughout those dark times old Grimsy, (The Grim Reaper) will become so blinded by and disgusted with the light, he'll haul ass just to get away from it. The darkness will not reign in our life no matter how tough it gets. I am a creature of the light. My role is to chase that darkness away.
That I now live in this beautiful Hill Country, instead of the desolate flatlands of west Texas, is another blessing I'm counting. I draw a great deal of strength from just being able to sit outside my RV and watch the sun set behind the hills I have come to love so much. To help me stay in shape, I can slip over to Joshua Springs Park & Preserve when I have some Me Time, and do a little walking and hiking.
I have so many blessings right now to be grateful for. Most of all, I'm grateful I have enough sense to look for that silver lining, focus on the positive, and not allow myself to sink into a quagmire of useless dark depression. Thank you Goddess for making me one of the Children of the Light. I know now who and what I really am, and am very grateful to be that. I will continue to shine brightly, even in the darkest times.
